It will all depend on you

I woke up this morning feeling excited on the thing which I could not explain. Maybe I will have a dinner with my good friend Rose? or maybe because today will be the last day of our 7 habits training. That I really don’t know. ^_^

I got to the office just in time, and I don’t know what the heck had happened that I ended with the feelings of anger, feelings of something which I really could not explain. Perhaps, I feel like an outcast.

It seems like nobody wants me for this day. Good thing though that I’ve got a friend or two who listens to what I say, and want to express. This is not a good week I know. And yeah, maybe it’s what I felt because it feels like I really don’t belong, just for this week…and the other side is that I get to know what I really should know and do. I guess mura kog mantika nga natulog, and this is the time that I should be doing something. 

I remember, on my way to work, it came across my mind a thought, a question, what have I been doing lately? and am I really learning? or everything just passed by.  I’m working but I’m not learning, I’m working but I don’t see what I have been working so hard, I’m working but I am not happy. I’m working but the very deep thought of it, I don’t know what I’m working for. I keep on dreaming, but I did not do anything to make that dream come true.

Hey, I guess it’s not yet too late. I will be doing something, and I guess this is the right thing to do.

@ im status: Stop it before it becomes a habit. And I’m referring to uttering such bad word, just to express the anger that I’ve been through, and yes deep inside, I know it’s not the right thing. And I’m going to stop it right now.

And for what is going on right now in my life, I am going to do something to make it right, and lead it to the right direction.

1. I will try to really extend my patience. Forget the wrongs that Richie had done to me and start anew with him. I may not be able to forget the wrongs that a person “B” had done to me, but I will ignore her, the best I can so that I will not feel anger that could sometime ruin my day. I am not going to hurt myself just for her…it’s past and I don’t want to recall it. It’s a bad experience, and it would remain in there, and I will not take it to where I’m going. I know it’s hard to forget it, coz everyday I get to see her face, but it will fade away, I know.
2. I will do things on my own. Not depending on others.
3. I will not be a lazy person from this day on. I will work on things that I really should have done before.
4. A new me will come out next week.

These are all just a little of what I can do, to make this life a meaningful one, a life that I can say, I have done something to fulfill the purpose of living.