Monday

I just came back from the 2 day vacation at home, a long weekend for me. ^_^. 

I wasn’t able, or we weren’t able to go to Negros for a vacation since there was a low pressure area in the Visayas part, and instead of taking risk on traveling by boat and no valid weather report as it changes from time to time, I just stayed at home, and Ricci went home to his hometown in Lutopan and my sister went to present their project to his team members. Everything really worked perfectly during my 4 days vacation. The sun did really shine the next day, and it was really hot, but we still didn’t push through our trip to Negros, because I don’t want to leave my mom alone at home. I just called Ate An-An to inform her of our plans on not going to her hometown in Negros. Sunday, yesterday, which was supposedly our returning day from Negros to Cebu, rained heavily, and siguro with us there, we will not be able to make it home by Sunday. I thank God for not letting be so stubborn on insisting to go to Negros. I may not able to go there but I have accomplished so much on my two day vacation from work. 

I finally got my student permit to drive. And soon I will start my driving practice. I was able to clean my room, got some stuffs that made it quiet look dirty and un-organized. Did the laundry of my clothes and my sister’s, that would lessen the task of my mother on washing our clothes. (If only I could pay someone to wash them, but my mom always insisted that “sayang ang money pambayad”. **sigh**

And today, is Monday, and I’m back to work. I just don’t feel fine, I don’t know. It feels like i’m an outcast or something? I want to feel excited but I felt the other way instead. I am a little bit mad and I don’t know to whom. Maybe I would just stay here in my cube, and do things that will be of great help not only to my brain but to my personal improvement as well. 

I’m planning to re-organize myself this time. And I hope that I will be able to really find what I really wanted, and not just based on what is popular and what is in, but to what I really need to be on top and be successful in my career and in my life.

Good morning!

Should I be excited or not?

This was my status yesterday in ym. And some of my friends ask about it and I told them what it really means. I asked myself if I should get excited or not in going to Negros to visit friends from Germany. There’s is no special occasion then, just a pure visit, a stay in their house perhaps or in a resort as what I have heard from Ate Tata. I got this feeling, maybe because I sometimes feel that there’s something that isn’t right or maybe because of what I have heard. I was weighing on the right feeling. ^_^. And here are some of the reason on the pros and cons of this trip.

By the way, I am going with my sister Aila and my boyfriend Ricci. 

I should be excited because…

• it’s my first time to travel outside Cebu, in a province in particular withou my parents with me, and together with Ricci and my sister.
• it’s another place for photography subject. ^_^
• I have heard that Ate Tata will be booking us in a resort and that would be cool, I guess. ^_^, a very nice experience, a total relaxation? I guess so.
• it’s nice to be a part of Ricci’s first trip by sea. hahaha..yeah..it’s his first trip outside Cebu and by sea. He haven’t ride in an airplane also. ^_^

I should not be excited because…

• my friends came here for vacation and to spend time with their families also and having us might only bother them, accommodating us. :[
• we might be an add-on expenses to them. 
• just last night, my parents told me that thee is a typhoon coming two days from now, so I guess it would be on Thursday or Friday?
• the weather today is quiet gloomy and maybe this could mean a typhoon really is coming. :[

Whatever might happen, I all lift it up to God. He knows everything that is happening in my life, in our lives. Tomorrow might be a good day for us, a fine day for us to travel by sea. Ricci and I will just pray and I guess my sister too because I know she is also excited on this trip. When the weather will not be good by tomorrow, we will postponed the trip and just enjoy my vacation leave at home, and I guess Ricci could also do that in their hometown while waiting for his father’s and brother’s arrival from abroad. Maybe in that way, he could also be of great help to his mother.

There’s is always a reason for everything. If God won’t permit us to go to Negros, I know there is a reason on why and why not we should go. ^_^

Have a blessed morning everyone!

Changing emotions

Excited to not so excited. Smiling to frowning. I just can’t seem to know what I should feel.

I thought I’ll be a having a one week vacation in Negros with some friends. But I received a text that it will not be one week anymore. I’m kind of not so into the news, there is a part of me that says, sayang…at the same time there is also a part of me that says, it’s good. Let me weigh each those thoughts that my mind has been saying.

 NOT SO GOOD?

• If i  go to Negros for 1 week, I’m just wondering, for the whole week me and my sister will be there, what shall we do? I have plans on bringing my camera with me so that I can take pictures, but aside from that? What?
• This is the time that my friends’ family will be spending with them, and me and my sister  being there would just somewhat ruin the day, or their moments together.

• I am pretty sure that we’ll be an additional to their expenses.
• I’m leaving my mother alone at home, that would kinda  be lonely for her, because my father will be going to his hometown in Samar.
• I will be using my vacation leave for 5 days, and I think that is not so good, I should be spending it with my family instead, and the fact that the Samar thing has been planned first, I backed out and decided to go to Negros instead.

GOOD

• I will be able to have a vacation for 1 week, 1 week out from work, from stress, from anger? hehehe
• I will have the opportunity to travel outside Cebu with my sister and richie alone,  but it’s not important though

Haha..tawa nalang ko sa akong self. Obviously, the bulleted items are clear, and would explain, i think so. ^_^

Plans have been changed and I know there are reasons behind why everything happens. ^_^

It didn’t matter to me at all, if it has been changed, what matters is I have opened my mind to what might be the reality. ^_^ I’m don’t have hurt feelings..hehe..really? awh yeah really..hehe..maybe..ahmm..after writing and weighing all those items above. ^_^

Have a nice day ahead! coz me, I will have a nice day! ^_^

What is up?

Hmm…

I find it quite funny because I set my alarm clock at 4am, giving me time to do some exercise, but it turned out, I let is snoozed once and turned it off, and went back to bed. hahaha. I woke up at 5.20am, and just had some stretching and had some set ups, just a little bit. I might be having a backache if I’d do several setups.

Went off to work, the useual ride with my big brother’s motorcycle and whew, just got in time, maybe even earlier than expected. ^_^. We’ll be going to have a badminton session after work, and not really excited, I’m just happy, I’d be able to let those toxics out of my body.

I’m supposed to be doing some serious work right now, but I kinda break my own rule on it’s second day of implementation, hehe.. i just can’t resist it. I want to write something today. ^_^. I just made a room reservation for my friend Ate An-An, as she and her husband will be coming soon on August 5 from Germany. Quite an excitement though, coz i just felt like I’m their tourist guide..haha..feeler jud! Well just nothing except that I’d get to see them again after Augsburg business trip. It’s my pleasure doing their favors, it’s my turn to do so, I guess. And helping them is a great experience. It only does not let me experience calling some hotels, it also let me develop my confidence in telephone conversation…isn’t it nice? hehe..

Anyways, so much for that. We will be having our team weekly meeting in a minute. And I should be doing some serious work nga pala.. heheh..bye for now!

Enjoy the rest of the day!

Xoxo

It will all depend on you

I woke up this morning feeling excited on the thing which I could not explain. Maybe I will have a dinner with my good friend Rose? or maybe because today will be the last day of our 7 habits training. That I really don’t know. ^_^

I got to the office just in time, and I don’t know what the heck had happened that I ended with the feelings of anger, feelings of something which I really could not explain. Perhaps, I feel like an outcast.

It seems like nobody wants me for this day. Good thing though that I’ve got a friend or two who listens to what I say, and want to express. This is not a good week I know. And yeah, maybe it’s what I felt because it feels like I really don’t belong, just for this week…and the other side is that I get to know what I really should know and do. I guess mura kog mantika nga natulog, and this is the time that I should be doing something. 

I remember, on my way to work, it came across my mind a thought, a question, what have I been doing lately? and am I really learning? or everything just passed by.  I’m working but I’m not learning, I’m working but I don’t see what I have been working so hard, I’m working but I am not happy. I’m working but the very deep thought of it, I don’t know what I’m working for. I keep on dreaming, but I did not do anything to make that dream come true.

Hey, I guess it’s not yet too late. I will be doing something, and I guess this is the right thing to do.

@ im status: Stop it before it becomes a habit. And I’m referring to uttering such bad word, just to express the anger that I’ve been through, and yes deep inside, I know it’s not the right thing. And I’m going to stop it right now.

And for what is going on right now in my life, I am going to do something to make it right, and lead it to the right direction.

1. I will try to really extend my patience. Forget the wrongs that Richie had done to me and start anew with him. I may not be able to forget the wrongs that a person “B” had done to me, but I will ignore her, the best I can so that I will not feel anger that could sometime ruin my day. I am not going to hurt myself just for her…it’s past and I don’t want to recall it. It’s a bad experience, and it would remain in there, and I will not take it to where I’m going. I know it’s hard to forget it, coz everyday I get to see her face, but it will fade away, I know.
2. I will do things on my own. Not depending on others.
3. I will not be a lazy person from this day on. I will work on things that I really should have done before.
4. A new me will come out next week.

These are all just a little of what I can do, to make this life a meaningful one, a life that I can say, I have done something to fulfill the purpose of living.